Today,
Angie and I had an appointment with a specialist to see what our options were. I love my wife so much and it really hurts me to see her feel so overwhelmed at all the decisions that we need to make over the next few months. I pray that God will allow me to be more patient and caring when she needs me most. Often, I get off on my own little tangent and don't give her the respect that she deserves as my wife and my God given help mate or equal.

Well,
I am looking forward to great and wonderful New Year. God only knows what is in store for this year and I mean that in a very literal way! I continue to struggle with time. Such an easy word, but so complicated as well. A day is as a 1000 years to God...so what really is time and how should we be using what we have? Something I ponder a lot. I also struggle with dealing with the past. You see God will take your past and separate it as far as the East is from the West, but we mortals like to keep our past hidden in the depths of our mind so that the devil can continue to torment us over and over again. I often struggle with that fact and why we have no children. I know it is not true, but somehow I allow that thought to come back again and again.